reddevil1977

I NEED A GOOD CAM .... :(

its been a month , i dont know why ! i feel am not into doing anything , nothing at all , i broke up with another girl i go to work like a machine i come back home to drink and somke more and just sit doing nothing ,... these journal posts are really a time line for my mood and most of the people i know .. but i keep wondering and thinking what next ... i did try it all i experienced a lot and did a lot but nothing am into anymore .. i feel like i have lost the joy of doing anything and the worst that i dont feel sad or bad about it .. whats going on with me whats wrong !!

i don't know if its fine to be like this .. looking at you but ... as if i am reading the future but still insist to go further ... as trying to stop but but i jump million steps forward .. looking at you but ... as if i am in a very bad bad nightmare i try to escape but this shadow is following me and can not find a way to hide ...i can not realize whats right and whats wrong .. i feel like am lost without you .. i miss you .....myself ....